Great is Thy faithfulness...

Lately, I've slowly been realizing how faithful God really is. It all started with my new car and new job this past semester. My car came at a perfect time and I never realized how much I really needed it. My new job has also proved to just be perfect. I've loved the last month or so and it's going to be a perfect summer job. I finished school last Thursday, and starting yesterday, I'm working full-time, helping out in the preschool and baby rooms, until the kids get out of school in June. Today, we had a meeting with the director about the school-age summer program, and it sounds like it's going to be really cool. Each grade level has a main teacher in charge (with another couple of teachers around to help out with all of them) and I will be the full-time kindergarten teacher for the summer! :D Each week of the summer program has a theme and each day has an activity or field trip that goes along with the theme. The kids also participate in enrichment classes every morning, such as arts and crafts, horseback riding, oragami, etc. It's so nice being at a job where I'm actually needed. My first daycare job told me they had lots of hours for me, but I many times found myself being sent home early or just not being given hours. My job at the Preschool Lab was alright (despite some semesters working only 4 hours a week) until they told me they didn't have any hours for me this semester. This job at Campus for Kids is so wonderful because they really need my help, I can get all the hours I want, and it's such a great environment. :)

God also proved Himself faithful to me last night...and it was one of those instances where there was no doubt it was God's working. So, Monday night I was a little down, struggling again with the whole self-worth thing. I went to the study day at my church to hang out with some people. It was fun and all but a lot of people were actually studying and I felt like I was just floating around, trying so hard to find people to talk to and hang out with. At one point, one of my friends told me she had to find her "crew", which of course got me thinking that I feel like I don't really have a "crew". I didn't have a group of people there that I could spend time with because everyone else already had their own groups. I did get to hang out with a few people and it was pretty fun, but I just came home feeling lost and down. I was expecting to go to the study day and have a blast just hanging out with lots of my friends. But instead I mostly felt like I was that annoying person who follows people around because she doesn't have her own friends. I know that's not how my friends feel, but that's how I feel I'm coming off. Anyway, I prayed about it Monday night after I got home. I prayed for my summer and that I wouldn't feel lonely and lost. I prayed for God's protection against the lies that get into my head. I prayed for comfort for the feelings of sadness I was experiencing. I also prayed for the happiness I felt last summer, when I felt like I had a solid group of friends. Well, God answered that last one right away. I talked to my mom on the phone last night until about 9:30. When I got off the phone, I went upstairs when minutes later, my phone rings. I didn't recognize the number, but I answered it anyway. It was my friend Matt from summer project! He had told me months ago that he was going to call me but didn't get around to it until last night. We talked for about a half hour and I went upstairs again after our conversation. I hadn't put my phone down for longer than a minute when it rings again. It was Bruce from project, whom I haven't talked to in a while, let alone on the phone since January!! We got to talk for a whlie and just catch up. Those calls were just what I needed after how I was feeling Monday night. And the timing of those calls were so perfect...it only could've been God. Although their calls don't necessarily mean everything's completely better inside, they really made me happy. They made me feel loved because both of them thought about me that night to the point that they wanted to call and talk to me. And they reminded me of the amazing friends I have, even though they live far away. It really gave me what I needed to get through what I was feeling and it totally made me just praise God for His faithfulness. It made me really want to just give everything up to God and trust that He will provide for me and comfort me. :)