Realizations

Being on project, constantly surrounded by so many strong Christians, it was really easy to get into the mindset that we were all invincible. And coming home, it was easy to carry that mindset with us, thinking that we're on this high that can fight anything. I came to the realization today that we're not invincible and Satan is still out there trying to attack us and bring us down. If anything, he's trying to attack us even more now that we're "on our own" and not with everyone from this summer. I've struggled with falling into becoming the same person I was before project and I don't want that. Not like I was a bad person, but I learned a ton this summer and I want live out what I learned and be a different person in many aspects of my life. But Satan has made it hard to resist falling into a rut of going back to my old lifestyles and I've been reminded of how human I am and how much I need God for strength. I hope and pray that my transition back to school will be a good and positive one. I would like to say that it will be easy, but I know it won't be, for many reasons. But I also pray that I will rely on God's strength more than ever during that.

However, I am excited to go back to school. I've been extremely bored here at home and I'm excited to be surrounded by people again! I'm excited to start up Crusade again and see everyone and to start serving on the SpEv team (Special Events) with Lia and Dustin leading. Although it won't be the same kind of community as living with 121 college students was this summer, I pray that I will be able to experience a similar kind of close-knit community within Crusade this year. It's so easy to get lost in the crowd there and not connect with people, but I really want to make a concious effort to not let that happen this year. I would love to find an awesome upperclassmen Bible study this year of women that I can just grow close to. One thing I wish I would've done more of this summer is grow closer to the women I lived with, so hopefully I can do that this year.

One of the last things Dan Allan (our project director) told us this summer was to live this coming school year with a project mindset, constantly comparing our walk with how it was this summer - constantly growing, being built into, and close to the Lord - and to strive for that. It only makes sense to do that so I pray that I would be able to strive for a walk that is always growing this year.

Anyway, I've babbled long enough! Thanks for reading! :)